Do you ever wonder sometimes if you miss life because you are seeing everything through the lens of a camera?
Since moving and moving back and spending a year, rather unhappily, on the east coast my photo taking has certainly suffered. I have taken less pictures over the past couple of years than I took in one month in the fall of 2005. I miss those random photos of my kids rooms or toys they are playing with or a shot of their hands or capturing an everyday moment...I don't seem to do that much anymore.
However, I gotta wonder if standing behind a camera while my kids blow out their birthday candles somehow lessen the moment for me, ultimately, as I look back one day? Will I have seen it all? Truly seen it all...Or, will it always be somehow made smaller and unfocused because I was really just looking out of a camera lens?
I love photos, don't get me wrong here. I think capturing all the moments I have will provide my children (and me) amazing enjoyment in later years. I also love the fact that my kids will have a month-by-month account of THEIR lives all documented and recorded. How awesome is that?
I began to realize this becoming an issue for me several years ago. When I was in Philadelphia I took pictures but I was also aware that I wanted to be fully present in all I was seeing and not just snapping photos left and right.
Sometimes that is a hard balance to find between living life and truly seeing...and capturing those moments on film for eternity.
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